Blue Screen of Death Error
You know when your
operating system just crashes and displays a blue screen? No matter what button
you press, it won’t respond. Its done and its dead. May be it was some external
virus or some internal application but your computer is done for when it gets
the blue screen of death error.
That’s how I feel
today. I feel like the operating system in my head has just collapsed. May be I am
a workaholic, may be I work 7 days a week but that is because I freaking love
what I do and I really want to be good at this.
But the last few days
have been full of rejections and complete disappointments. May be I do push
myself too hard but if I won’t then no one else will. I do have an opportunity
to pitch my ideas to an international magazine but I already know in my heart
that its just not going to work out.
And no, I am not just
being pessimistic. Because trust me I am a pretty optimistic person, I try to
see the good in everything that happens in my life and my blog is a proof ofthat. But for the first time in a long time, I feel like I am in a ditch.
My goal is to not be
successful or earn more money, my goal in life is to keep moving. My worst fear
is getting stuck in a place for too long, that is the reason I quit my job and
that is the reason I don’t take up another permanent job.
But its been quite
sometime and I am just not moving.
Don’t you say that I
am not trying, I don’t just try, I hustle. And yet, nothing seems to be
working. Ever since I quit my stupid job, I have been sub consciously waiting
for that moment when I finally regret leaving a secure job. While I am not
quite there yet, I am just hoping I never get to that moment.
For now, I am just going to calm my self down by listening to this epic Spice Girls number.
"So tell me what you want, what you really really want, I wanna, I wanna, I wanna, I wanna, I wanna really really really wanna zigazig ha."
1 comments
Times may be hard, but they can only be temporary. Keep smiling no matter what, greetings and best wishes!
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