Change
I have been staring at the computer screen since the past one hour. I need to do something really important, actually buy something really important and I don't know if I deserve it. Its not about the money, its about whether I can have that kind of commitment. (On the other hand, I bought a pair of sunglasses that I don't even need)
I don't like change in my life. I am a very boring person who likes to do the same thing everyday, eat at the same restaurant and whine about the same problems. I like stability around me and even a little change bothers me so much that I can't even sleep sometimes.
But this change has been long time coming. I kept telling myself that I wasn't ready for this, that probably I didn't have enough time for it. But then I remembered I am sleeping 14 hours a day and I shouldn't be the one complaining about the time problem.
Its not like I have to do it, nobody is forcing me for that. I wanted this, I have wanted this since so long and now I finally have the chance but I got cold feet. I need to suck up and do what is supposed to be done. I have got nothing to lose to here, so why not take a chance and see what it is like.
PS : This late night rant was an effort to take channel Arya Stark's spirit in me ( If you don't know the Starks, you don't know Game of Thrones. And if you don't know Game of Thrones, we can never be friends. SORRY !)
Hope you had a great weekend
Ritika
I don't like change in my life. I am a very boring person who likes to do the same thing everyday, eat at the same restaurant and whine about the same problems. I like stability around me and even a little change bothers me so much that I can't even sleep sometimes.
But this change has been long time coming. I kept telling myself that I wasn't ready for this, that probably I didn't have enough time for it. But then I remembered I am sleeping 14 hours a day and I shouldn't be the one complaining about the time problem.
Its not like I have to do it, nobody is forcing me for that. I wanted this, I have wanted this since so long and now I finally have the chance but I got cold feet. I need to suck up and do what is supposed to be done. I have got nothing to lose to here, so why not take a chance and see what it is like.
PS : This late night rant was an effort to take channel Arya Stark's spirit in me ( If you don't know the Starks, you don't know Game of Thrones. And if you don't know Game of Thrones, we can never be friends. SORRY !)
Hope you had a great weekend
Ritika
7 comments
taking chances...why not...worth the thrill
ReplyDeleteRoutine scares me....eating at the same place? thumbs up! And I haven't come across a boring person yet, a writer/blogger.. sawal hi ni uttha ;) Best Wishes!
ReplyDeleteHahaha... thank you :)
DeleteCan we be best friends ?? Because I love Game of thrones and if anyone refers to it they go on my best friends list.. no questions asked.. :)
ReplyDeleteI have mixed feelings regarding change, kinds like scared/excited/welcoming feelings.. Hope whatever was troubling you when you wrote this got sorted out.. :)
Haha.. Lets be best friends Me-er :D
DeleteAnd..yes it all got sorted out :)
congratulations on the change- good for you.
ReplyDeleteand tho its hard- change is always good for u- takes u outta the humdrum and into something new and exciting- ask me.... as a Army wife change is a part of my life now... every few months!
Thats true Maryam..and I cannot even fathom how tough it must be for you to move to a new place so soon
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