When we are born, we are given a clean slate. A simple blank page where we can draw whatever we want to draw. The only problem is, we can't erase any of our mistakes on that paper. Our mistakes live with us forever.

I have a big guilty bone in my body, I feel horribly bad when I hurt people intentionally or unintentionally. But that doesn't stop me from making mistakes. I have this thing of lying to people for no logical reason despite of how close or important those people might be for me.

I get selective when it comes to telling the truth. I can't for some reason be completely honest with people. I feel if I am telling the complete truth to anyone, I am exposing a vulnerable part of myself to them. To be very honest, I don't think I am a very good person. And If let people know about the exact things on my mind they might just hate me for who I am and leave me.

But as you can guess, this method of lying didn't work out well for me. When you lie, you get trapped somewhere -sooner or later. And that has cost me a lot in my relationships.
So I guess that leaves only one option in front of me - to be plain blunt honest. I don't know if its going to work, I don't know if I am going to get through this but I am going to try my very best. Because I need to do this for myself and the people around me.

Maybe it's not blood bonds that make us a family. Perhaps it's the people that know us and love us anyway