#LookUp - There is hope

By Thursday, March 05, 2015 , , ,

What is that one moment that filled you with optimism and hope for the future?


I kept thinking about this on and on and I couldn't figure out what was that one moment in my life, sure there were many happy moments but to pick that one special moment that surpassed all the other ones was really difficult.

So I started browsing through my old blog posts, if there was a hopeful and optimistic moment in my life, I must have written about it. I write most of the major things on the blog because it helps me process things easier because this blog just lets me be. And that's when I realised I was in idiot to look at other places for an answer when it has been right in front of me all along - my website was the hopeful and optimistic thing in my life.

I started this website as a dark point in my life, there were so many voices in my head and I didn't know how to get rid of them. That's when I picked up my laptop and created this blog. I didn't think anyone would read it, I thought nobody could even find it online, but I was obviously very wrong. Over the years, many people have stopped by here to show me their support and let me know I am not the only one having stupid problems in my life.

But it was not the admiration that made me feel better, but the feeling of letting it all go by writing my heart out here. When I started out writing here back in 2012, I was a girl with really petty problems in her life, but she didn't know how to live like those problems never mattered. Empty places used to haunt me back then. If I were alone in a room for more than a day, I would go completely crazy, but now being alone doesn't make me lonely anymore. I am comfortable with who I am and I am proud of who I was. If it were for that anxious version of me, I wouldn't have started this website in the first place.

This website gave me a ray of hope. A hope that made me feel like everything was going to get okay, if not today then tomorrow. And even if everything didn't go as planned and went completely topsy-turvy, I would still have this place to vent it all out. A place that I can call my own. A place where I don't have to hide behind the mask. A place where I can just be myself without caring about what the world might think of me. This is my very own special place and this is the place that gives me hope. I hope it gave you a little ray of hope too



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  1. Can totally relate to this...started my personal blog in WordPress when I was going through a really bad phase, it really helped me as it worked as an outlet and I could share anything without thinking twice about it. The freedom to freely share thoughts and feelings was amazing. :-)

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