The Strong Girl Theory
Somewhere along the lines you discover the kind of person you want to be, you realize which people are worth keeping in your lives and which ones should be chucked off immediately.
There are only going to be a few people who will stand by your side even when the whole world goes against you. You need to know who those people are and treat them with the respect they deserve. Its human nature to take those for granted who we know won't leave us in any way, and we start going behind the wrong things. Instead, what we really need to do is shower love and respect on the people who have always been there supporting us and criticizing us to make us stronger.
Whenever we are in a dilemma, we often put our hands up declaring we have no idea which way to go. When actually, we know exactly what we need to do. We are just too afraid to do it or sometimes just want to see where the wrong road might take us. You don't have to be good at decision making to get out of the dilemma, you just have to follow your heart. Because no matter how much you condemn it, your heart always points in the right direction.
I have always wanted to be the strong girl everybody could take inspiration from. I remember I was in 5th class when I had just changed schools and I was having a very hard time adjusting. It was this new posh school with all the smart kids who scared me to death. I used to go in the bathroom during recess and cry endlessly. After two weeks of being the timid-never-speaking-anything girl and crying over not being able to adjust, I decided I had to get over it. I decided I would rather 'fake it till I make it' and be that girl who scared everyone else to death.
From then began the façade of the strong girl. I acted so emotionally detached in front of people, my friends used to make bets if I even had a heart. I thought may be if I played the part, I would become that emotionally-detached-never-getting-phased-by-anything girl. Of course, the mask does come off in front of some people but that's because I am not afraid to be vulnerable with them. But I don't think I can ever take the mask off completely for the world to see.
I am just not that strong.
Because I just had to share it. This is way too funny