A Little Soul Searching

By Monday, January 13, 2014

When we are born, we are given a clean slate. A simple blank page where we can draw whatever we want to draw. The only problem is, we can't erase any of our mistakes on that paper. Our mistakes live with us forever.

I have a big guilty bone in my body, I feel horribly bad when I hurt people intentionally or unintentionally. But that doesn't stop me from making mistakes. I have this thing of lying to people for no logical reason despite of how close or important those people might be for me.

I get selective when it comes to telling the truth. I can't for some reason be completely honest with people. I feel if I am telling the complete truth to anyone, I am exposing a vulnerable part of myself to them. To be very honest, I don't think I am a very good person. And If let people know about the exact things on my mind they might just hate me for who I am and leave me.

But as you can guess, this method of lying didn't work out well for me. When you lie, you get trapped somewhere -sooner or later. And that has cost me a lot in my relationships.
So I guess that leaves only one option in front of me - to be plain blunt honest. I don't know if its going to work, I don't know if I am going to get through this but I am going to try my very best. Because I need to do this for myself and the people around me.


Maybe it's not blood bonds that make us a family. Perhaps it's the people that know us and love us anyway

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13 comments

  1. You were brave enough to post the above and I commend you for that.
    Wishing you the best in this journey of life to make the right choices so that your poster of life gets radiated by the choices you make :)

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    1. Thank you so much Ruchira. Your words really meant a lot to me :)

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  2. It is totally fine honey. We might nt be really good people inside...but we are inherently good. That is all tht matters.

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    1. May be you are right. Nobody is an intentionally bad person, its just the situations

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  3. Life is never black and white. . It's grey all over. .

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    1. Thats something I have always believed in Rohan. Life is just different shades of grey

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  4. Digital age hai :P its no more a sheet, its a graphic drawing tablet where everything is possible. :D

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    1. Haha.. I loveee your way of thinking Prateek :D :D

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  5. Great saying and a very nice post :)
    Nicely penned!
    Keep blogging
    O:)

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